i am NOT supposed to be sitting in THIS house with MY compter in THIS room! it all feels so WRONG...so last year. i feel as if i've reverted back to then and like everything is going to be just as it was last year, living in my house as a high-schooler who's never lived on her own...i feel like i should be getting ready to go on some church youth trip or something.

i've lived out on my own. i've got my own bank account. i've got my own tradidtions (such as IHOP at 11:00 on wednesday nights).

what is this summer going to hold for me? more lessons in patience i'm sure...and perhaps i'll learn to let got of a bunch of junk i don't need, lest i be buried in mountains of stuff next year when i ship out of the dorms again!

one thing i know for sure...i don't want this to be a plain ole' sit-on-my-bumm-and-be-useless kind of summer. i want to be used somehow..to be light somewhere..but i don't know where and i don't know how...yet