everytime i breathe i feel it...because i'm so congested.

it's nice to have the energy to be out and going to classes again..but dang this cough just wont let go! i'm realy mad about it..because i NEED clear lungs so i can play and sing my best. we have a band concert tomorrow night, i need to be able to play my flute..which means i need to be able to breath without coughing...uhg

the WORST is when i try to sing. i get so worn out now..because i well..wore myself out all week coughing and being sick. my voice is in shambles and if i try to warm it up i just cough more! i was so frustrated trying to practice tonight...it made me want to throw something..so i did..i came in my room and threw my music folder at my bed and watched it spill out all over the floor. that felt kind of good, but it doesn't change that fact that the state my voice is in right now makes me want to walk into dr. roberts' office and burst into tears of frustration.

this is 8th week of term becca, pull yourself together. you're just have a nervous breakdown. you have two weeks to get this stuff learned...so just calm your nerves and do it.

but i can't sing!! @#$%&!

at the start of this trimester i was in love with these songs. i was prepared to learn them all and be able to perform each of them without a gripe about it. now i just hope that i can sing in time for jurries....

God, help me