4-24-00....technically it is already 4-25-00

so i'm sitting here listening to The Juliana Theory. i just got it today from Liz, being that she doesn't actually like the cd at all....she so kindly sent it my way:) i shall have to do something rad for that chica soonish

some CDs are jsut extreamly emotional for me...jennifer knapp, the normals, the waiting, rich mullens, juliana theory....the list could probly go on..but i want to talk about this cd more now...

AUGUST IN BETHANY "with the sounds of the ocean crashing, 7:30 friday evening, everything comes tumbling down. i choke back each tear that bleeds. i'd rather rest forever in your arms. i'd rather stay here than go, but i know that i should leave, as i sit here helpless... don't go... you said you wouldn't... you said you couldn't... i think of our time together. is it fading? am i dreaming? everything you said lives on. i cherish our memories. i want to kiss your tears away tonight. it's hard to give up the one you never thought you'd leave. don't go... your eyes see through my soul... don't go... you say as i walk out the door.

i tend to crave emotional songs...not to say exactly that i mean "emo", just that i crave what i find emotional... songs that speak of things i know... songs that paint familiar scenerios to me...and then there are those songs that i'll start to play out in my mind as if they are familiar situations..and someitmes they make me sad...such as a song as the one i copied up there ^, why did i paste it there? i'm not even sure..but i love that song...and it yanks really hard on my heart..as if someone were actually thretening to leave me...but no one is...still, the song makes me sad...somehow i really very much enjoy that feeling...it's comtemplative...a nice coffee-house, swing-set, or back-stage-staircase type of feeling....

tomorrow (tuesday) is the music banquet...it's gonna be a lot of fun i think..and i think everyone is going to look splendid in their pretty formal clothing:) i *do* hope i get a-hold of a camera before then..i asked nick to look for his for me...but knowing him, he may never have hope of finding it! if he doens't, i might jsut run to wal-mart in the afternoon and buy either a disposable, or a cheap automatic one. i alreayd spent 7 dollars buying film for the one i thought worked, so i may as well use the film!:) after i get some pictures, i'll scan them and probly put them on my pictures index (i REALLY need to take the time after school is out and make a REAL picutres page!) i hope i'm in a hyper-i-don't-care-what-i-look-like dancing mood tomorrow night..or else it will be a lot less fun for me...

gee-golly this entry seems to have gotten long! goodnight everybody..i have an 8-o-clock class in 6-and-a-half hours;)